Dependence...

Apart from being tired, not having tons of energy or feeling "gung-ho" to accomplish all we're doing each day I feel good, only minor side effects with the Tamoxifen.  I've had lots of follow up appointments and a few tests and everything's all clear each time.  Isaiah's very healthy, 10 months old and 20 lbs., crawling/climbing/pulling up, he IS very high energy, gung-ho, loves music and his adoring family.

Thank you for your prayers, life gets a little overwhelming sometimes, I get frustrated with feeling tired sometimes, I need His grace is so many ways, all the appointments between me and the kids...but at the same time, I am SO GRATEFUL to have this year behind me, to be with all 3 of my beautiful children, to get to stay home with them, I'm grateful for this dear man I get to walk through life with, I'm grateful for time, even though it speeds past too quickly at times...and He's been teaching me to be grateful for the things that "hold me back"--my energy level, my poor memory--I love watching Him provide for my every need after I've whined to Him about not being able to do some things...I keep forgetting the silliest things, nothing life-threatening so far(thank the Lord), and He reminds me or provides ahead of time...its pretty amazing to watch. I thanked Him for the humility of it, depending on Him in this way, since I've always had a great memory and seemed to have taken some pride in "my" abilities, judging by how frustrated I've been at the loss :) It really is a joy to all through the day ask Him if I've forgotten anything, or where I put something...maybe I sound crazy, you're probably thinking, "Laura... you REMEMBERED it??!!" but I'm just telling you I KNOW He reminds me, my synapses are on vacation, they're not firing like they used to :) its a complicated story but the other day, He actually led me to prepare all these things, and then after I got into the situation and remembered what I was supposed to do, I realized it didn't matter that I hadn't remembered, I had exactly what I needed...it was a beautiful and unexpected gift!

love you all and hope you are well, thanks for caring about our little family!!"

---from an email